Are you KIDDING me with this jiggly jogging?

I am going to embrace my inner fat person ( who has been my outer fat person for the past couple years) because exercise is degrading.

I'm going to get those jeans that'll lift my butt and squish my thighs. I'll lean ALL of my mirrors a bit forward at the top to give me a false sense of slimness.

I will avoid looking at my lap while sitting unless my baby is in it.

What I will NOT do is watch my flesh dimple and shake while I run a few miles, play a little DDR on Wii, all in hopes of return to my former slender self.

I have done this before, I lost 60 pounds after Kristen. Sure it was 12 years ago and it was after my literally life-devastating divorce, and lost about 45 of those pounds in a fog of self destructive behaviour. I probably would have wasted away from the Despondency Diet if Bill hadn't wandered into my life, and gave me a much needed shake until my teeth rattled.

Figuratively, people.

Anyway, I'm ready to lose the weight and get back my energy. I have been dealing with a skin problem, massively distracting itchy, bumpy rashes (ew) and my dermatologist has prescribed some stuff which makes me itchy and bumpy (which I was before) and now my skin burns like a house-a-fire (which is a new development).

So, hey. Maybe I'll open a cupcake shop and then no one will think twice about my chubbiness. Bakers are always a bit "fluffy", it goes beautifully with the tall hat.

And I really like cupcakes.

So Busy, So Tired, So Joyful!

I am blessed beyond belief. My kids are such a joy to me. D is practically 14 (gulp) and K is in junior high now, so weird. L is changing so fast, I feel like I scrambling to keep up with them all!

D's devotion to Bionicles is as strong as ever. With the The legend Reborn coming out he is even more committed to knowing everything there is to know about them. His obsessive fascination is typical of Aspie's and it does worry me that he is a little too engrossed, but I try to stress the Strong elemental aspects and hope that it will lead to a wider interest in science. I also try to get him to write about it because he has a real grip on the ideas and understands the construction of the canonical story line. He impresses me with his ability to immediately apply what he learns in school to his Bionicle world!

Kristen is still focused on skating, her clique at school at Katy Pery. She went to Katy at the fair and enjoyed it alot, she hasn't stopped talking about it! I have to say her clique seems a little snotty and self- absorbed but I guess that is pretty typical of the middle school set. I remember being pretty much the same way! She is still a bit of a tomboy, but she is beginning to become more tolerant of girly things. Hurray!

L is amazing! He is growing so fast, and he is such a big boy. He's been sleeping in his room finally, he usually only gets up once a night, so that is like the best gift a mommie can ask for. He still resists his crib (I can't figure that out) but sleep's well in his bassinet. He rolled over once at 9 weeks but hasn't done it again. He hates tummy time so I am afraid he'll never crawl, LOL, but he holds his head up remarkably well and has for a while now. He is very social, and constantly strives to keep all eyes on him. His smiling and cooing makes me feel so wonderfully happy, and watching B with him brings me to happy tears. I am so thrilled that my husband can leave behind his natural reticence behind to be silly and cuddly with the baby. He loves to make L laugh and coo, and watching them interact is the high point of my day!

I am back to work, and it is not as bad as I thought it would be. My MIL is the main reason, she is the perfect grandma! She is all about the g-babies! She is loving, cuddly and endlessly patient. We feel so blessed to have her in our lives. My FIL is fantastic too I am so glad they moved out here. They really fit in Sun City, although they feel like the kids of the town! At 67 and almost 65 they are still totally active and full of excitement about what life has to offer.

All in all, I am outrageously happy and spend alot of time thanking God for his gifts, He has kept my cup full and I am so grateful everyday.